I was scared he would be worse than what he already shows me.
I've made mistakes but none that would a make someone act as he does.
So what if I talked to people online? That doesnt mean,
you go about threatening to kill me.
What did I do 9th grade? I only went to the homecoming game !
And I was still inside school boundaries.
Why did you take your 3 foot kirpan out and put it to my neck?
This is the year you started coming to me at night for your pleasures....
Oh so in 10th grade I had AP essays to complete for class
I was up until 3 AM, so I decided to take a few minutes to browse
I didnt know you were hiding behind the wall ready to come out right when I did that.
Only to then make me show you every page I went on and then accused me of lying.
Why did you hit me with the 'Madani'? I went to school the next day with bruises....
all over my arms, and my back, I saved my face from you.
I thought you would stop, but you still kept coming to me at night....
So what happened in 11th? I was fixing something on the computer
I allowed my friend to hack the computer so he could fix it.
You come in accuse me of talking to guys, and next thing you know
my dastaar is on the other side of the room, my kesh are in your hand,
while ur pulling me by them to the other side of the room.
You did it 3 times, the next morning where it took me 10 minutes for my dastaar
it took me a whole hour.
But it didnt take you a day to forgive me for that, because the next night you were in my bed again....
In 12th I didnt do anything but you came to my room at nights to turn on the lights and just shout.
You would shout at me so much, hours would pass by, and then
it would only be an hour left to wake up for school again.
Somedays you would slap me, and since I would be by the wall my head would slam the wall after you did that.
Then there were times when you took the burning iron and brought it close to my face and threatened to burn me.
I thought you would stop at some point but you kept going....
even you coming to my bed never stopped...
You never cared for me, instead you made my life miserable every part of the way.
You then complained about my grades, you complained about my weight.
You always said it would have been better if I had died being born.
Dad, You now know why I ran away from home after highschool.
You were never going to stop.